S.A.D.

That actually stands for, Seasonal Affective Disorder, which I have. Lately it's been raining and the rain makes me depressed. Mum says it's the absence of SUN that makes me depressed, not the RAIN, but I know it's the rain. It's like the sky is crying, the world is crying. It makes me sad.

Hectic emotional week, due to drama and ect. HATE THAT.

Sitting on my roof helps me feel better about everything.

DOCTOR WHO CAME BACK ON! The first episode was BRILLIANT. And even though I didn't get to see it the day it aired, I still got to watch it and it was still BRILLIANT. The next episode came out YESTERDAY, but I haven't seen it yet. Will be watching it tomorrow morning.

My feet are cold.

Mainly... Nothing's happened to me. I've been drifting. I had a quote I was going to put up here but I can't remember what it was.

"Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole." ~Death Cab for Cutie, Marching Bands of Manhattan. Not the quote I was going to put, but I've been listening to this song all the time because it's how I feel sometimes, most of the time.

Have you ever liked someone so much you HATE their guts? I have. I feel that right now. I can barely look at them, without feeling that love and then hating it because I know they don't return it.

I went to a play. Kaleigh and Abby and Krysta's play. It was good. Called the Lottery. It was like thirty minutes long, and kind of confusing.

My play is in a couple of weeks. Actually, it's next weekend, on the thirteenth and fourteenth. It's kind of scary because I'm scared that it's going to suck BALLS. I want people to come see it, but I don't want to fail epically when I get up there.

My Australian friend got back on the computer. I missed her. According to facebook, we are engaged.

I was thinking about getting a tumblr as well, but the problem is I don't know how to work tumblr, and I don't know if I'm cool enough to have a tumblr.

I sometimes wish that the silence would eat me, the crack in time and space would erase me. I thought about my death the other night. I thought about if I died if anyone would notice. You ask them and they always say they'd miss you, they'd cry, they'd be upset and stuff, but you never really know. I saw (in my mind) myself jumping off my roof and into the basket ball hoop on the concrete. It wasn't pretty, but I was smiling. That's not a good thing.

I think I'm getting sick.

I started watching Farscape again, which is a fantastic show. Almost finished with the last season, and then I have to watch the movie.

I love Jude Law and Robert Downey Jr. They are fantastic.

I met the theatre teacher over at Fern Creek, his name is Mr. Rush. He's pretty cool.

I don't really have much to say anymore, but if I remember, I'll let you know.